Last week we did an exercise in class, planning for our ‘careers’ five or ten years in advance. We were asked to visualize where we would be five years down the road, and think about what actions we had done to get to that position.

If this activity were done retrospectively – meaning jumping back a year and thinking about whether you would have predicted where you are today – it would clearly be no.

If there’s anything I ever imagined, I would never have imagined the end of my time in NIE to be like this.

I’ve become strangely aquainted with a place I hardly knew before, used terms everyday that were never in my vocabulary prior to this and at the same time found myself at a loss of words more so than ever before. Silence and stoicness have become my regular demeanour when entering an environment where I should feel most comfortable to be myself.

Yet the journey is less than half done.

Tomorrow a new battle begins. I know the end is victory, because that’s what is promised, but what does the journey entail and what does victory mean? What does it mean that I am more than a conqueror? What does it mean that it will all work out for good? What does it mean to trust?

I have no answers. Are you not going to give me any answers too? Why have I been empty when I should be full? Why have I be silent when I should have had the words to say?

Memories bring hope and pain simultaneously. Hope of what could be, pain because of what is loss and the journey of recovery marked with uncertainty. Photographs of smiley faces, foreign lands represent vague impressions of what was and a strong yearning for a simple, certain, mundane life. Simple things you yearn for – a click, a shadow, a request, a favour – no longer seem so simple anymore.

There is no choice, but to press on. Because of the promise. Let me focus on tomorrow first.


Sowing and Reaping

Within the span of 1 hour in the morning today, I read 4 messages about sowing and reaping.

My REAPING is coming soon!

At 7:45 a.m: Robb Thompson’s Daily Devotional

Whatever You Make Happen For Another, God Makes Happen For You.


“Knowing that whatsoever good thing any man doeth, the same shall he receive of the Lord, whether he be bond or free.”

Ephesians 6:8 (KJV)


From the very foundation of the universe, God established laws that could never be broken. One of those governing laws is the law of sowing and reaping. This law is an avid expression of God’s own faithfulness to mankind. It is impossible for God to deny Himself, so He made it impossible for us to ever bypass the law of sowing and reaping. We cannot escape from the wondrous blessings, or the possibly grim consequences, of our actions.

In 1955, as an increase of tension broadened into an Egyptian naval blockade of Israel’s shipping, Major General Moshe Dayan was called back from vacation, fully aware that sowing hostilities on the part of the Egyptians could very well reap the appetite for war. In an article published in “Foreign Affairs,” General Dayan wrote, ” . . . the air is heavy on both sides of the frontier, and peace hangs on a tenuous thread.”

Now, some people are destined for misfortune because they totally ignore this divinely universal law. But you and I can be different. We can use this principle that, “whatever we make happen for others God makes happen for us,” to better ourselves and those around us.

  • What do you desire for this life?
  • Do you make that very thing happen for those around you?

There is no surer way to experience the life of your dreams than by following this principle. May God help you to sow your life now, so that your future only reaps great rewards!

Daily Confession

Father, I trust that whatever I make happen for others, You make happen for me. I thank You for giving me a right heart as I sow into the lives of those around me.

At 7:48 a.m: A friend’s blog entry & follow-up SMS at 8 a.m.

“Those who sow in tears
Shall reap in joy.
He who continually goes forth weeping,
Bearing seed for sowing,
Shall doubtless come again with rejoicing,
Bringing his sheaves with him.”

(Psalm 126:5-6)

At 7:50 a.m. CHC Devotional for Today – Giving your way out of Lack

And Elijah said to her, “Do not fear; go and do as you have said, but make me a small cake from it first, and bring it to me; and afterward make some for yourself and your son.” 1 Kings 17:13

In the midst of a severe drought, Elijah was sent to a widow in Zarephath. God will never ask you to do anything that would hurt you in the long run. As you step out in faith to obey the rhema He has put into your spirit, you position yourself for a miraculous blessing. But first, the trial of faith. When Elijah met the widow, she was preparing the last meal for her son and herself. Elijah said, “Please bring me a little water in a cup, that I may drink” (1 Kin. 17:10). What is the most precious commodity in a drought? Water! Would this widow bring that which was most precious to her and give it to a complete stranger?

Elijah then upped the faith challenge: “Please bring me a morsel of bread too” (17:11). To the uninitiated, this sounds like an unreasonable request. If Elijah was thirsty and hungry, he could have gone to a rich man. Why “torment” a poor widow who was down to her last meal? God wanted to meet the needs of the widow and bring provision to her. But the principle of abundance states that you must first give before you can receive (Luke 6:38). To the world, that widow can’t afford to give. But to God, she can’t afford not to give. Her generous sacrifice is her lifeline to get herself out of debt.

The world’s philosophy about money is: (1) Get all you can. (2) Can all you get. (3) Guard the can. God’s philosophy is: Give as much away as possible and you will start getting more. Proverbs 11:24-25 says, “There is one who scatters, yet increases more; and there is one who withholds more than is right, but it leads to poverty. The generous soul will be made rich, and he who waters will also be watered himself.” In short, you can give and give and give your way out of poverty into prosperity!

Elijah encouraged the widow: “Don’t fear, just go and do it” (1 Kin. 17:13). True enough, as she did what Elijah said, she and her son continued to eat from her supply of fl our and oil. For no matter how much they used, there was always plenty left in the containers, just as the Lord had promised (17:15-16).

In God’s kingdom, there is no recession or lack. But faith is the currency of His kingdom. As you step out in faith by paying your tithes and giving your offerings, you will find yourself giving your way out of lack into God’s abundance. Try it. He won’t fail you.

At 8 a.m. ST Breaking News:

Teach Character Values (Read the full speech by Lim Biow Chuan – you’ll find the sowing and reaping there)

My reaping is on the way. I believe it to be so!